Didnt know you’re so disgusting.
I just feel disgusted?
We havent been talking for awhile. Looking back at what we’ve done together and the way you treated me, you’re the worst guy I’ve ever met? Despite the fact that we’re friends, I feel that you’ve never truly treated me as one. Is it teasing or being downright rude? I should stop finding excuses to explain why you are disrespectful towards me. It makes me look like an idiot and I don’t want to be that idiot anymore. A delusional idiot NO MORE. You’re hot and cold towards me. One day you’re hot and one day you’re cold. Is that what friends are supposed to be? NO. Supposedly you’ve already known I’ve feelings for you, then all these while, are you trying to say that you’re playing mind games with me? I think so too. If not you wouldn’t have treated me as such if I am ever a friend to you. A friend whom you didn’t even bother texting, a friend whom you didn’t bother to know whats going on in her life, a friend whom you just don’t give a damn about. It makes me think what an idiot I was… I feel that I’ve been the one giving but what I’ve been receiving are your silent treatment and disrespect. I dont think I am overthinking but… ya now that I’ve time to reflect the things that happened for the past one month or more.. The way you treated me is simply uncalled for and unacceptable. How foolish I am to think that it is possible between us and that you are THE ONE. You’re disgusting to me now. I dont deserve all these treatment from you. If you’ve ever loved me or like me… you would have cared for my feelings. You would want to protect me. You would want to make sure I am happy. You would have showed love, care and concern but you didnt. I felt so stupid that all these while, I was hoping that we would end up together when you didn’t reciprocate at all. The mixed signals that you gave… I’ve misunderstood it. No way I am ever going to be so naive anymore. It is impossible between us. It’s disgusting to know that all these while, C is in your mind all day long. It’s disgusting to know that she is on your Instagram top search. It is just fucking disgusting. OMG. All the things that I’ve done for you mean nothing to you at all because all you care about is C. I felt so stupid? Why did I even bother to find that souvenir for you when you didnt give a damn to me? Why did I even bother to be so good to you when you treated me like shit? Omg i am so stupid, naive and foolish. C is your priority. You care about C. I am nothing to you. Red flags after red flags and I still didnt get the hint. Foolish, too foolish. I hate you not because i didnt get what i want but for the way you treated me. I dont deserve it. What an asshole.
No way.. i am just going to forget you. It takes time for me to treat you like a friend whom i think i will not have a relationship with. It takes time. This time round i truly believe that i will get over him, definitely. Disgusting omg……..
ask yourself what you wanted to be.
ask yourself what you’ve become.
now ask yourself:
was it worth it?”
People that say go big or go home probably highly underestimate your willingness to go home
